|Where to begin?
||[Nov. 7th, 2009|04:00 am]
And now we can see...
I was born 85% blind, and even though I've been wearing corrective lenses since I was old enough to run into tables, my vision is still, in short, sucky.|
At my last check-up, they said I had somewhere around 20/400, with an astigmatism. My only options with contacts were gaspermeable or not at all. With the odd shape of my eye, getting them to fit right was damn near impossible, not to mention painful.
My doctor said I was a candidate for LASIK, with an estimated result between 20/40 and 20/60. I was also told that if I did not get the surgery, my vision will only get worse; I'll be blind before I'm 30. I'm not sure if this is true or not, but anything regarding my eyes terrifies me. My father decided he didn't want to pay for the surgery, and went on vacation instead. Such a loving family.
I'm 20, and I realized the other day that I couldn't accurately depict what my vision was like to my best friend because I simply didn't have anything to compare to. I've never seen sharply, and the mere fact that I've spent my whole life with smudged faces half-smiling at me makes me cry.
So when my mother asked me what I wanted for Christmas, I told her I wanted LASIK more than anything.. Even though I doubt she'll actually pay for it (there's a reason I'm on the coast when everyone else is back east), I want to plan everything out so she can if she decides to keep her promise.
So I ask, where do I go from here? I have insurance (at least for another four or five months), but I don't know of any eye doctors out here, or where I'd even go to get an evaluation again. Should I call my insurance provider for a referral? Should I go with a payment plan? Anyone know any good surgeons in the Bay area of California? I'm pretty lost, and scared. I'm afraid if I go to the wrong doctor I'll loose my sight for good. I couldn't live if I couldn't see... I wouldn't be able to draw anymore...